Psalm 42

I am getting married in 11 days. I feel like I'm remaining relatively calm, but there are so many little detail things that need to get done. I find myself constantly running through the list of things that need to get done in my head over and over again. Not that going over it gets any of it done.

I did have a brief period today when I was overwhelmed with how some things were going to get done; pretty important things, like getting our marriage license, so you can understand my panic.

I took some time this afternoon to go for a walk through campus- something that always calmed me down in college. I stopped at the part of the Red Cedar behind the Admin Building, where the water rushes down the ledge. I had forgotten how much time I had spent sitting there, letting God calm me amidst the chaos in my life. It was so soothing and refreshing. And reminded me of verses from this psalm.

As the deer pants for streams of water,
so my soul pants for you, O God. 

My soul thirsts for God, for the living God.
When can I go and meet with God? 

...Deep calls to deep
in the roar of your waterfalls;
all your waves and breakers
have swept over me. 

By day the LORD directs his love,
at night his song is with me—
a prayer to the God of my life. 

...Why are you downcast, O my soul?
Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,
for I will yet praise him,
my Savior and my God.

vv 1-2, 7-8, 11

Still, amidst the chaos in my life, God calls to me, calms me, and makes me stand in awe of Him. He knows just what I need and He always provides. That's my God. Amazing.