The Return Reflections

Well, now that I have been home for almost a month, I should probably take some time to work out the things God revealed to me during my return to Mazatlan. It was really hard to go back, to be there, to see all of the cool things God is doing there, to see all of the things that used to be a part of my everyday life...
 To be completely honest, it did make me want to go back. To be living there again. To be a part of all of the cool things God is doing there RIGHT NOW. 
Alas, that is not what God has for me right now. I also had some interesting revelations in light of how I was feeling. 
#1 - Just because I like something doesn't mean it is a "desire of my heart"  that God needs to give to me.
You know that verse from psalm, "Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart." (Psalm 37:4) Well, just because I like something or really enjoy something does NOT mean that it is a "desire of my heart." For example, I like singing. A lot, actually. But just because I like singing doesn't mean that I will ever sing in one of the bands at my church. Or that I will ever be a popular singer and have a single on itunes. Sure, I like it. And either of those things would be really cool. BUT just because I like it doesn't mean that it is a "desire of my heart." Or that God is going to give me either of them.
#2 - If something is a desire of my heart, God does NOT need my help to give it to me. 
I realized that I can be like Rebekah sometimes. Like, God has shown me what he WILL do, and I feel like I need to DO a whole bunch of stuff to make that happen. God did not need Rebekah to trick her husband into giving the youngest son the blessing for the youngest son to rule over the oldest son. She didn't trust that God would do what he said he would do. She felt she needed to help God out to accomplish his plans. God does not need my help to do anything. Period. Just because I might think something is a desire of my heart doesn't mean I need to DO things to help God give me those things. I need to trust that God knows best, he knows my heart, and he will give me whatever the desires of my heart are WHEN I delight myself IN HIM.
It's not about me at all. It's about HIM. Less of me, more of Him. All of this also brings up another question I need to ask God and seek wisdom on... what makes something a "desire of my heart"? That will be for another post...